My Grandmother

 I sincerely hope that each of the anti-humans that abducted my grandmother to another state and abandoned her at a nursing home get literally *everything* done to them that they've done to her. I hope one day they feel abandoned. And alone. And I hope no one calls them. I hope they are isolated. I hope their children never visit them. I hope they die alone. I hope they fall, get hurt, and suffer. It is My Will, it Must be Done. All of you motherfuckers can get bent. You are going to die alone. And it's quite befitting a "person" of your esteem and stature and qualifications. 

My Child is Finally Safe

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 These past few months have been dark, for me. the ex was using our child as a pawn, and he abducted our child out of state and abandoned our child at his sister's. Literally said "they're your problem now." This was after plucking our child out of a safe, warm, loving home. Anyway. This is all why he has to do anger management. Then possibly reunification therapy, but I'm leaving up to my child's discretion.

 So, as you can imagine, having to defend myself *and* our child from this monster took a lot of effort and energy. It feels good to know that my baby is finally safe at home with me.  And it's also good to know that I have done everything perfectly, staying honest and authentic, which is the only way possible to win a court case. At least, that's only way to win when you have an impartial judge. I didn't have an impartial judge last time it came for me. But I do now!!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I adore Commissioner Kaber to the moon and back!  My therapist had a professional relationship with her when she used to work with kids, and she told me she really cares, and her main concern is always the child. Which is why Com. Kaber appointed a lawyer for my baby. The lawyer is what got them brought home. The lawyer is what got me my baby back, because my home is where my child's best interests lie. I can keep them healthy, safe, and happy. The big 3. 

So, as you can imagine, my main concern will of course be my child. But I could never forget about you, my love. My Domme journey continues, with or without you. I have a lost to say about that, but that warrants a separate post.  

Take care, my love 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋 

Self Love Journey

 My self love journey has been nothing if not arduous. And *long*... so very long. However, I do finally feel as if I have arrived at an "acceptable" degree of self love. Not delusional, but also kind of ... immaculate? If no one else has my back, if no one else is with me, *I* am with me. And I matter. My presence matters, and I am worth something. And so are you, dear reader.

Temporary Reprieve

 I fought a dragon today, and I won. When I have support and professional help, I can get anything done. And I even have a perfectly safe space (here) to write about my victory. I wish this were a more permanent win, but I am patient. For now, I get to be a mom for longer without getting hassled by my ex for at least a few days. Tomorrow, I get to go grocery shopping, then I can cook form home again. It really is the simple things, for me.

A Fresh Start

 It's challenging to put into words how much of a relief it is to finally be able to express myself candidly. It's like, if you've kept yourself form going outside because you believe the sun will hurt you, but now someone has convinced you it's safe to come out and play. I would be skeptical. But the sun on my skin would feel so good! I wouldn't be able to resist. 

Because of that, I'm coming out to play for good, on my own terms. I'm done with being afraid to speak freely about my inner world. Anyway, my final words on the topic are that *no one* should ever feel afraid to speak their own truth. Especially in our so-called free speech country. 

I'm going to be detailing my adventures with rope and bondage here. I'll also be documenting my rise to proper Domme-dom. I can't exactly call myself that, yet, but just you wait. There's so much more to proper domination beyond just spanking and joi. I want to share them *all* with you, my love. I will have you hog-tied and begging for mercy in no time. 😈What a pretty little pet you will make for me. 💜💞💟