One thing I can say with truth and conviction is that life has not been kind to me. Yet, somehow, I persist. It helps my situation that I still look DAMN good ... even now I'm old enough to add, "for my age." 

I have come so far. I am so proud of how far I have carried myself. And make no mistake, *I* got me here. I can still hear the gaslighting in my head, but now I couldn't care less what it says. I am free. 

Navigating new connections has been a battlefield at times. Deciding who to trust comes easy, but I have been rebuilding my self esteem and rediscovering my self worth. I have been building an entirely new life. Which is one reason why I am often absent, dear reader. I am getting my myriad health conditions under control, finally. I'm finding worthwhile people. Life for me is very good. 

I always knew I was meant to be a Domme. Everyone else has always gotten that vibe from me, too. I needed to create a space where it was safe for me to be vulnerable and process my ptsd, in order to rise to that occasion where I am Dominant (in a bdsm sense). So, I enjoyed being a sub for a while, while I created my safe space. Now that I have that, I can do literally anything. Maslow was right. 

"Renfield" (2023), "Five Nights at Freddies" (2023)

 This isn't a movie review blog, but if it were, I would write a lengthy yet concise article about all the things I loved about Renfield 2023 which were ALL ruined by the forced comic book superhero style action. Just, completely ruined. 3/10.

On the other hand, I did also check out Five Nights at Freddies. I've never played the game, but the movie was okay. The premise and plot were interesting and unlike Renfield, did not feel forced. *Like* Renfield, I enjoyed the effects. 7/10.