Other than dealing with the stress that comes form having to commodify oneself, I have been very interested in the psychology of pain. I'm using it in my novel.
I enjoy novel writing, because I am an extreme introvert. My eternal motto is "hell is other people." So, I'm really enjoying the opportunity to draw into myself and just create. That's the entire reason I do what I do. So I can create worlds for you to enjoy.
And about 3 nights a week, I must emerge from my well crafted cocoon in order to dance like a majestic butterfly for a few hours for you <3 I love that part, but there are other parts that cause me agony. Like constantly having to share myself. I am a very private person if you couldn't already tell. So, having to post all the time on social media, and even sometimes posting here, can be exhausting. Plus I have this *gigantic* dog to care for. He has ptsd, so dealing with his triggers can often be dangerous.
So, pain. I'm just putting everything into my novel. The entire agony and ecstasy of existence. I don't want to give too much away yet, but I'm writing every day, and I'm very excited about where this is headed.
